Cheek fillers, chin fillers, lip fillers, if you can name it, you can add some plump to it. Jack, a 37-year-old based in Oklahoma, decided he wanted to add a little filler — about an inch’s worth — to his dick, and he hasn’t looked back. In addition to that added girth, Jack also acquired a new and uncharted level of confidence. Today, he feels at ease dropping his pants in front of just about anyone. But getting a shiny new schlong doesn’t come without some financial and, at times, physical pain. This is his story.

My wife and I have a few dildos at the house that we play around with. A couple of them are bigger than I was before fillers, and another one is almost identical in size compared to the old me. Before I got fillers done, I would notice that when she’d masturbate by herself, she would gravitate toward the thicker dildos. I felt like that was on me. Damn, she actually prefers those bigger, thicker ones, I thought.

Before I went in for my procedure, I measured my dildos at home and decided I wanted my dick to be anywhere between 5.5 and 6 inches in girth. I was 4.75 inches in girth at the time, and after assessing whether that was appropriate for my length (roughly 7 inches), the doctor said that my goals were totally achievable.

I didn’t have a micro penis or something that was unusually small, but enlarging your penis is one of those things that if it’s available and possible, then why not try it? There are different kinds of surgeries and alternatives that people undergo to enlarge their penis, and so I got to reading. Eventually, I just stumbled across an article about hyaluronic acid fillers (HA for short) and men having these injections done in their penis.

Hyaluronic acid is the same filler substance that many people use for their cheeks and lips, and it's not permanent — it’s absorbed by your body over time. It’s widely used, and it’s been around for a long time. I also read studies about how this type of penile fillers have a very low percentage of negative side effects, so I decided to go for it. No silicone, no PMA, no Botox and no other shit seemed safe to me.

I started looking and found tons of urologists and beauty bars posting before and after pictures. I was shocked. Holy shit, that’s possible, I thought. Look at these guys getting girthier dicks — that’s something I’m interested in. I talked it over with my wife, and although she never complained about my size at all, she supported my decision. She compared it to breast implants, and said that if that’s something that I wanted to do, she’d support it.

My biggest concern was functionality. You have a lot of veins and blood vessels down there, and they’re going to be jabbing needles in my dick. I needed to make sure that this thing was going to function afterwards as normal. My second concern was being subject to infection, because that’s a part of your body that’s already hell. You get sweaty, and it’s not always the cleanest part of your body all day long. And lastly, I didn’t want to do this procedure and then have to wait to use it.

The doctors I went through were really good about having pre-consultation meetings, so I just asked all the questions I had. The internet’s great for self-educating, but there’s a shitload of misinformation out there.

The night before the procedure I was so nervous. For starters, I didn’t want to get in there and have to pee, so I was stressing about needing to pee beforehand. Then, of course, I had to be sure I shaved perfectly — everything had to look straight and clean. But they’re also medical professionals, and it’s just another day for them. They mainly told me not to get drunk the night before to avoid extra bleeding.

On the day of the procedure, they sat me in this chair that leaned up on a 45-degree angle. They drape you, and get your dick through a hole; then they get you cleaned up — alcohol swabs and all — and obviously, you can’t be hard. Which, honestly, that’s not a situation where you’re going to get hard anyways.

The worst part comes right after — when they give you lidocaine shots. That shit don’t play; it fucking hurts. It’s localized anesthesia, so they give you the shots right in your dick. And it’s not one shot — it’s about five. I have a pretty good pain tolerance, but for that, I gritted my teeth and thought, Oh my God, I hope this is worth it.

Two minutes after getting those shots, I was completely numb. That’s when the fun part begins. The medical staff are a bit like artists, really. They fill your dick up with the filler and then mold it and shape it to make it look as natural as possible.

Anesthesia aside, the pain after the procedure was zero. I just had puncture wounds all around my shaft, and for two days, my dick was super swollen and bruised like a motherfucker. It was crazy-looking, but it wasn’t painful. At first I was worried because my dick was purple, but they reassured me that it was normal. Beyond that, I was ready to get hard and see what the result was.

The doctors wanted the puncture wounds to heal up so that no bacteria could get inside and create an infection. So they told me to abstain from sex for three days. They also told me it’s completely normal to get hard during these first days. Most men get erections in their sleep, and that’s fine as long as you don’t do anything with them.

As for other aftercare rules, I just had to disinfect it and keep it dry and clean for the first 24 hours. They also said I should avoid masturbating because the filler needs to set and get a little harder. At the end of the day, it’s a liquid that’s placed underneath your skin, so if you jack off, you could end up moving it all to one side, or all to the front or the back. At that point, it would become uneven, and you’d end up with a lumpy dick. In fact, the doctors told me to mold it myself after a couple of days. So I had to get in the shower, and rub it and roll it between my hands to make it even.

At first, it totally felt like someone else’s penis. I’ve had the same dick forever, and it hadn’t changed in size since I was 16. Then all of a sudden, you come home one day and your dick is different. That’s a weird feeling — I’m sure women feel that way with breast implants. But I will say, I’ve lost zero sensation down there, although if I rub my fingers across the shaft, I can tell there’s a little cushion there.

My wife, however, can’t tell. But she can definitely tell a difference when we fuck. She’s had several partners and said she’s never been with a guy that’s this girthy. Sometimes when we have sex, if she isn’t really turned on and ready, she almost feels like it’s too big. That kind of takes away from it a little bit, since that was the whole point!

I did 16 units of filler. The first time I went in, I got eight units, and then I had to wait for three weeks before I did the other eight. They don’t do more than seven or eight units (or syringes) at a time, because they don’t want to load your dick up. If you want it even bigger, you repeat the process and go back as needed. After the first eight units, the filler settled mostly around the center of my shaft, and I thought it looked great, but it was skinnier toward the base of my head, so I had to go back in and get some more there to make it all uniform.

This shit isn’t cheap, though. It’s $600 per unit, and I did 16 of them, totaling more than $8,000, which was more than my wife’s tits. I did this in February, and the problem is that, while the data set of people who’ve had this done is getting larger, there’s not enough data out there to show what the average lifespan of the filler is. Plus, each person’s body is different, and it absorbs filler differently and at a different rate.

My doctor told me that most men feel like they need to come in for a touch-up (on average, two or three units, so roughly $1,200) 18 to 24 months after their last appointment. That’s still a lot of money, but sex is a big part of our lives. Besides, I don’t have a country club membership and I don’t play golf. I’ll spend $1,200 a year on my dick, no problem.

The first time I felt my new dick I was smiling. My hand had never not gone all the way around my cock before, and now I can’t touch my thumb to my fingers — that was a good feeling. Plus, I retain a high level of confidence with the fillers; I’ll drop my pants in front of anybody, which is something I wouldn’t have done before. My wife and I play around with the swinger lifestyle, and we’ve been to some swinger clubs. I definitely have more confidence to drop my pants in those settings now. And now my wife has “a new toy,” as she puts it.

After it was fully healed, my dick measured 5.5 inches in girth and kept the same 7-inch length. If I had to get eight units every year, I probably wouldn’t keep doing it, because that’s too expensive. But now I want to wait around and see how improved my sex life really is. My wife and I have sex four to five times a week, and she is still trying to figure out how she likes my new dick. Overall she’s happy, but she also said that, had I not done this, her experience wouldn’t have changed — she’s got just as high a level of satisfaction as before as she has now, and it didn’t improve her orgasms. On the other hand, it did improve my sex life; I definitely feel like I’m stretching her more than I used to.

As I mentioned, my confidence improved too. When I got my new dick, I went and bought a box of Trojan Magnums. I’m married, and I don’t wear condoms, but I bought them because I wanted to see what that felt like. When I was younger, I wore regular Trojans, so I wanted to see how tight of a fit the Magnums would be now. That son of a bitch was even tighter now than an old condom used to be on me. I think I could get the Magnum XLs, and that’s crazy to me.

But my favorite part about my dick filler isn’t related to sex. The most common time a man uses his penis is when they pee. You grab that thing 10 times a day to pee, and every time you grab it, if you’re not satisfied with your size or have a low amount of confidence, that’s not an enjoyable experience. Now, every time I whip it out to go take a piss, I’m reminded that I have a nice, girthier new dick — and that’s the best part to me.